Last 4 week Appt

Yesterday I had my last 4 week appointment and ultrasound. It was great to see my little man, even though all we got to see was his "junk" because his face was buried down in my pelvis. I also did my glucose test yesterday, got the orange drink, it wasn't too bad. So far no news, they told me no news is good news. According to the ultrasound he is 2 lb 13 oz and of course still a boy. Now I'm going in every two weeks. This weekend is my baby shower. I'm super excited but also a little nervous/embarassed because all I've done is lose weight and I don't really have a baby bump. I realize I was overweight before but I think it will be a little odd to have a baby shower with no baby belly. Guess I should cut this short and change positions because my little kickboxer feels like he's about to kick/punch his way out right now. Until next time...

Busy Creating Life

I've been super busy lately working, being a wife & dog mommy, and you know just creating life in general. I'm 28 weeks and 2 days now. We found out the we are having a BOY! I'm super excited. I didn't know how much I didn't want a girl until my husband found out what we were having and I was going to be surprised but I couldn't wait! I would love any baby of course but we really really wanted a boy. I love shopping for boys clothes and decorating his room. I love this baby so much already. He spends his days and nights kicking the crap out of me ALL. THE. TIME. He just moves so much and I even had to research to see if that was normal. So far I have had an easy pregnancy. The depression/anxiety has dissipated and I've lost 25 lbs. Even the back pain has gone away. I hate to speak too soon because now that I'm hitting my third trimester I'm sure the weight is just going to pile on! I just can't wait to meet this little guy and show him how loved he is and how hard his mommy and daddy worked to get him. But even miracles take a little time..:)

From Bubble to Baby

My little bubble has grown quite a lot! I'm 17 weeks today and I have my next OB appointment tomorrow. I've been so spoiled with ultrasounds everytime I go to the doctor. I have a very healthy baby who is already so good! I've had no morning sickness, queasy a couple times, but no throwing up or major sicknesses. I only crave fresh fruits and veggies and water, lots and lots of water. I get to listen to it's heartbeat whenever I want to on my AngelSounds Doppler. I almost have no trouble finding it's heartbeat and I just sit and listen to it forever. My first trimester was super hard. I was tired all the damn time. I couldn't stay awake and being anemic, the progesterone shots, fighting back pain, and just being pregnant didn't help. I'm loving my second trimester- I'm not used to being more hungry but I'm not as tired, I do get worn out as fast but it's not so bad. The worst part is fighting the back pain. Its hard having chronic pain and not being able to do much about it. My dr did say I could take vicodin every now and then but I try not to take so much. One thing I thought would go away when I got pregnant was my depression and anxiety, but it's only gotten worse. I guess infertility never really goes away and the pain everyday doesn't help. On top of that I've had so much stress that is super hard to deal with. My job is terrible and they give me so much trouble for missing work due to anything from migraines to not being able to stand up. My bosses are the worst bosses I've ever had and I'm hoping to find a new job while on maternity leave. I try not to stress too much because I don't think they're worth losing my baby. I've worked hard for this baby and nothing is going to make me lose it.

My Bubble

My first ultrasound was amazing. I got to see my ONE little embryo. We could almost see the heartbeat so I go back in a couple days to have it checked out and then my RE will release me back to my OB. My embryo looked just like a little bubble. Everyone kept saying is it a little peanut? And I said nope it's a bubble. I am very happy in my life right now. I do have anxiety and dwell on dealing with a pregnancy and chronic back pain but I'm just going to take everything day by day and hope that everything goes smoothly and I can hold my sweet baby in my arms someday.

Betas

Just stopping in really quick. 1st beta on 5/7 264 and 2nd beta on 5/9 538! Super excited about such good numbers and that they elude to the fact that there is probably only one. First u/s on 5/18. DH can't go but my BFF will go with me. I can't wait! Things are finally looking up.

BFP

I got a BFP yesterday before work! Im super excited. I'm not quite sure if my husband knows or not though. I wrote I love you on the positive test and put it on his phone and left for work, he was leaving for our lake property that morning to get it ready for Memorial Day weekend. I texted him Good morning later and he said good morning back. I asked if he was excited and he said yes. I said good me too. Then when I got home from work the test was on the floor underneath the bed. I tried to text/call him several times but there is no service down there. I don't know if he meant he was excited about the pregnancy or the lake trip! LOL. I guess we'll find out when he gets home today. I can't wait to see how my bloodwork turns out. With all the severe cramping I feel as if there are a million babies in there fighting over a place to live! I've almost passed out twice the cramping is so bad. I've found the only way to stop it is to eat as much as I can until I can hardly move and then the cramping subsides. I've also upped my water intake too to help with any cramping. I actually called my Dr's office and they okayed me to come in Monday since I'm off to do my bloodwork. I'm not sure if I want to because it will be easier to just do it before work Tuesday & Thursday instead of trying to switch shifts to get it done Wednesday since I'm supposed to open. I hope I have good numbers!

8dp3dt

I'm on day 8 since my transfer. Monday I took a HPT to make sure the HCG from the trigger was out of my system - it was. Not sure if seeing the negative or the loss of all and any symptoms put me in a negative mood but up until yesterday I was thinking this cycle was a wash. I just had overwhelming thoughts that this wasn't going to work. But Tuesday night right before bed I started getting this pulling/cramping feeling which was so strong I just layed down and couldn't move. When I woke up yesterday morning my abdomen was a little sore and I had cramps all through out the day yesterday. I was convinced this meant AF was coming but after reading some msg boards a lot of what I experienced other did too and they had BFP's! So I think either tomorrow or Saturday I will take a HPT and see what it says. My first beta is 5/8 which is 14dp3dt. Reading online I've come to see that as pretty late. So by Saturday I think 10dp3dt is a good amount of time. I sure hope my lack of other symptoms besides the PIO symptoms just means I'll have an easy pregnancy if it works!

Waiting...

This 2ww might seriously kill me! I'm getting impatient and it's only been 2 days! I've been a little uncomfortable cramping a little but mostly pressure but I think it's still from the retrieval. I am having severe leg and foot cramping. I think I need to change my milk from skim to 2% or vitamin D for better nutrients. I already drink plenty of water and take magnesium supplements. Tomorrow the embryologist will call with the news of how many embryos we will have in the freezer. So far as of wednesday we have 3. I hope more make it in! Anyway off to date night w my husband and picking up my car I just got 4 months ago from the dealer. They had to take apart the engine. Thank goodness for powertrain warrenties!

Transfer complete!

Had the transfer yesterday. It went pretty smoothly. We transferred two eggs. One was an 8 cell A- and the 2nd was 10 cell B+. It was very very exciting. First beta 5/8/12. I will probably test before then because thats 14 days after transfer and a lot of people test around 10 days. So I will probably test Cinco De Mayo 5/5/12 on my own. I really hope one sticks!

Egg Retrieval

Yesterday was my egg retrieval, it went well. We got 21 eggs. I'm still pretty sore though. I got a call from our guy in the lab and he said there were 12 mature eggs and 11 fertilized. He's not sure about quality as of yet. Transfer is Wednesday and I'm really really nervous. I can't wait though! I can't believe it's only two days away!