TTC over

I'm not sure who reads this, if anyone but I think I need to write this down for my own personal reasons. So I thought I'd start by enlightening people as to why we're done TTC. My marriage of 3 months is a failure to put mildly. My husband and I don't always get along and since we've known each other such a short time I've always attributed it to that. But when one person doesn't want to work it out, nothing can be fixed. A week ago my husband and I got into an argument and things were said that didn't need to be said and since it got so heated, I decided to take myself out of the situation before anything else was said by going and staying the night at my mothers. When I came home the next day he'd packed his stuff and told my roommate (my best friend) that he'd be back in a week, he was giving me time to cool down. I thought that a week apart with no contact would help, we needed a break. Saturday night I run into my ex, W, and I get the whole "Leave your husband and come back to me" deal. This would be one of my exes who just had a baby and of course the first thing he does is whip out a picture and show it to me, which was hard to swallow. And since it's a small town I also find out my other ex, M, is having a baby girl soon, ugh. I leave, saying I take my vows seriously, I love my husband. So When I make the call to him last night, I don't get an I miss you, I'm coming home. I get news that he got another bank account and has plans to rent a house in his hometown. I'm completely devastated. I ask him about options and talk about annulment, a non-contested divorce, and/or marriage couseling as I've researched all 3. He says he looked up divorce and annulment and refuses marriage counseling. I'm not sure as to where we go from here or what I will do since I do not work due to my back injuries. I am going to be going back on birth control for the time being, because this is not the relationship to bring a baby into. I just want to say that I love DH more than anything and when I looked into his eyes just 3 months ago and said my vows I never figured it would end like this.

Not Working

Hey so I went to my Dr. on the 23rd of Dec. She put me on Pro.metrium to start my cycle. By that time I was 5 days late. I should have started the 18th and was late. I had already taken a test a few days before to make sure I wasnt pregnant before going in. Then they gave me a test- all negative. So I started the pro.metrium that day and took it for 12 days and nothing. Never started or anything. Called the dr and they told me to take a test and then wait until Jan 15- tomorrow- to test AGAIN and then refill my rx and start taking it again. I don't feel pregnant and I'm fairly sure I'm not so I guess I'll try this again. I was also looking into something more natural like Fert.ility Blend. I was going to go to GNC after this round of Pro.metrium if it doesnt work and see how that goes. DH and I havent really been getting along so I don't feel like actually doing what it takes to make a baby. So giving the Pro.metrium a chance to work sounds good to give us time to work it all out. Everyone said the first year of marriage is the hardest well I'm finding the first 3 months pretty damn hard. Anyway I've also been back to the Dr. for my back. I had an MRI today and will be going back to the dr. on monday for the results. I feel more surgery thats not going to help coming. I'm sick of them saying I'm too young for all this. I get that. I'm young yes but I have back problems and they need to be addressed as real. I realize people go in there for drugs or because they like attention but thats not me, I'd rather not be there at all. So I'm waiting to see what happens on all fronts.