Day 14

So far I'm still waiting to O. TMI AHEAD! Yesterday DH and I BD'D and about 4 hours later I had some blood tinged EWCM. My ovulation test yesterday morning was negative so just to be sure I took another one last night and it was still negative. But I'm glad we BD'D just to make sure. I wouldn't want to miss my chance after all the side effects I went through. Seriously I was one crabby be-otch. I slept a lot. Instead of ripping my husband's head off or yelling at the dogs for no reason, I just napped. Between that and the sweating it wasn't all bad. For Christmas I got a new camera, a Nikon D3000 to be exact. So while I'm waiting for this cycle and trying not to get my hopes up, I've been practicing taking pictures. I've been watching tutorials on YouTube, reading my Nikon School manual. I love taking pictures and it's a good way to keep my mind of everything. I've also been applying for new jobs, I need to make more money. I like the people I work with (except one), like working with the animals, but I just don't make enough to cover future fertility meds/procedures or should I get pregnant, enough for daycare. Not only that it seems that everybody at this place drinks the water and ends up pregnant! Last weekend I had to give a ride to a girl who is 6 months pregnant to a baby shower for a girl who is 7 months pregnant. You can imagine that that was all rainbows and sunshine for me. Here I was shoving fertility meds down my throat and these two are all "oh look at my belly, touch my belly". I was patient, put on a smile, talked babies, and made it through the day. I was pretty proud of myself.

Back in the saddle...

The whole birth control thing didn't pan out too well. The first two months I had a migraine EVERY day. It was enough to make me mental. Then I was getting ready to start a different kind when my doctor took me off of it because I was so miserable. DH and I have been discussing wanting to try again, and this time I left the decision of when to start trying again up to him because it was so emotionally and physically draining on us last time we almost split up. Then Tuesday I unexpectedly AF showed up, and I talked it over with my husband (who was shockingly on board) and called the Dr and I began taking Femara last night. So I'll be taking it days 3-7 and then tracking my ovulation from day 10 on. The sucky part about PCOS is you never know when or if you're going to ovulate. This will be the first time I will be tracking my ovulation so intently to try and pinpoint a day. I've totally slacked off on the whole weight loss thing. Not only am I lazy but everytime I get into a work out routine my back goes out. I am currently getting chiropractic/physical therapy care twice a week and hope to start some aqua therapy soon. I have got to get some of this weight off before March. I'm really really nervous about this cycle, and I'm trying not to get my hopes up too much as I can't stand another let down.