From Bubble to Baby

My little bubble has grown quite a lot! I'm 17 weeks today and I have my next OB appointment tomorrow. I've been so spoiled with ultrasounds everytime I go to the doctor. I have a very healthy baby who is already so good! I've had no morning sickness, queasy a couple times, but no throwing up or major sicknesses. I only crave fresh fruits and veggies and water, lots and lots of water. I get to listen to it's heartbeat whenever I want to on my AngelSounds Doppler. I almost have no trouble finding it's heartbeat and I just sit and listen to it forever. My first trimester was super hard. I was tired all the damn time. I couldn't stay awake and being anemic, the progesterone shots, fighting back pain, and just being pregnant didn't help. I'm loving my second trimester- I'm not used to being more hungry but I'm not as tired, I do get worn out as fast but it's not so bad. The worst part is fighting the back pain. Its hard having chronic pain and not being able to do much about it. My dr did say I could take vicodin every now and then but I try not to take so much. One thing I thought would go away when I got pregnant was my depression and anxiety, but it's only gotten worse. I guess infertility never really goes away and the pain everyday doesn't help. On top of that I've had so much stress that is super hard to deal with. My job is terrible and they give me so much trouble for missing work due to anything from migraines to not being able to stand up. My bosses are the worst bosses I've ever had and I'm hoping to find a new job while on maternity leave. I try not to stress too much because I don't think they're worth losing my baby. I've worked hard for this baby and nothing is going to make me lose it.