Holidays...

I made it through the holidays! Every year at this time it gets really tough being an infertile. Seeing all the holidays shoppers out there with their strollers, families standing in line for Santa, seeing pregnant family members, and being asked when we are going to start a family. I have slowly started telling people on mine and DH's side about our troubles, and I think the news slowly trickled down through the grapevine because I got a lot less "you're next" comments. It's like a double edged sword for me when it comes to talking about fertility. I'm such an honest, open person that it's hard for me to keep something like this a secret. I usually talk openly about it but when it comes to my dad's side of the family (who I usually only see once or twice a year) I just can't discuss it. I don't want to see those looks of pity I know I will get. I already get them because I am the heaviest person in the whole family and because of the back issues I have.

This year I did get a few "You really need a baby" comments because I dressed up my little chihuahua in a tshirt and coat. I have 3 dogs. A lab named Ava, a beagle named Girl (DH's dog when we got married), and the chi chi names Lola. I sometimes catch myself talking to Lola like I would a baby. On Christmas Eve she was in my lap and she yawned and I looked at her and said "Oh, thats a big yawn", heaven help me.

On the baby front...DH and I are still on our break. I'm not really keeping track of ovulation and stuff. I am making sure I still have my AF just to stay healthy. I am on a weight loss challenge with some girls at work, and I am hoping to lose enough weight to make a huge difference and to kick start my body into ovulating on it's own.

So without further ado...here are my furbabies!!