Embarassed..

I went to work last night in an ok mood. I was just really tired, which for me is the norm lately. I've been at my job for about 6 months now and I know the girls pretty well and I've shared a little of the TTC journey with them, not too much. Pretty much just the oh yeah DH and I are trying. Towards the end of the night I go to use the restroom and of course I find (sorry TMI) spotting on my panty liner. I decide I'm going to suck it up, and I head back out to start cleaning, but first I try to call DH. 1/2 hour later and about my 6th call to DH, who isn't answering the phone, I completely break down into tears and I can't stop. My coworker has no idea why and I'm totally mortified. How do you explain to someone that you just started, something they do every month, and it's devastating because not only are you not pregnant, you have to start fertility drugs. Something you've been dreading. I feel so embarassed about my actions last night, I'm usually the "comic relief" type person. Always making jokes, and trying to lighten the mood in a stressful time at work (we're having a computer conversion, and changing our whole filing system). Anyway so it's officially CD 1 today and I'm depressed and in a foul mood of course....onto a new chapter...