Today..

Today I have my day 12 U/S. Since it's my first I'm not really quite sure what to expect but I'm hoping we see some follicles. DH and I BD'd on day 9 and 11. I was hoping for more but it was like pulling teeth to get that. I think he's stressed and he made a comment about how it was becoming a chore. I'm trying to make a decision about whether to tell him when I'm ovulating or not. He may know but I try not to make a big deal about it. I'm not sure if this cycle, and the next don't work, I may take a break. After 2 years of trying and 3 cycles of clo.mid we may deserve a much needed break. I know I probably will. After taking each cycle I suffered and emotional and mental breakdown, I couldn't stop crying and DH thinks I'm crazy. I had my chihuahua on lap yesterday and started crying because I had the "I'll never have a baby" thoughts, I'll only have a dog. I wonder if I'm the only one who feels like they're going nuts after taking the clo.mid. We'll see what happens. Hopefully this cycle works.