Bad Blogger

I am such a bad blogger. I wish I could write in this thing everyday but then when I think about writing something and putting it out there I freak out. I'm not really sure why. I don't, this point, have any followers and have only received one comment on one post so it's not like anyone is actually reading this. And if they are, they aren't anyone I know personally. I'm going to try to write at least every other day from now on. I'll write everything I can think about, and probably bore anyone who does come across my blog. But whatever it's MY blog and I can do what I want. :) I also need to learn how to "work" this blog. I'm not good at putting pics up, I don't know how to change my background, or even link to other people's pages. I need help! I could work my way around my.space so well when I had it and people would ask me how to do something! I don't know why this is sooo confusing. I am on the internet probably 23 out of 24 hours a day and I can find out how to do a lot of things, but I guess I'm lazy and haven't actually researched how to work this thing.

So anyway on a more personal note my BFF is leaving. 4 years ago she and I were crazy, single (well she was single, I was sort of single- but that's a whole different story), partiers. Like every single weekend we went to Cul.peppers and drank away our problems with the $2.50 Long Island Iced Teas they had. I have to say it was the best time of my life.

I wasn't an outgoing child, with high anxiety and never liking things to change, I never made friends easily until I got older. I used to sit in my house and read. I didn't do bad things, never got grounded, and never actually drank a lot until I turned 21. So on my 21st birthday, Judy and I hung out our very first time. After that we were inseparable.

Until 4 years ago after a night of Long Islands we made it over to my little brother's (I say little because he's only 2 years younger, but growing up he was my baby brother! Now he's 6 ft tall!) apartment. My brother and best friend at the time didn't really know each other and since both of us still lived at home (don't judge, it was waaay cheaper) we would go over to my brother's place and hang out with him and play drinking games. The next thing I knew they were dating. Then they were together. We all moved into a 2 bedroom townhouse together. Then they broke up for a summer, the summer I met my husband, but they ended up working it out. Now they are getting married next march and while the first year they were dating I had a really really hard time with it, now I can't wait for my best friend to become my sister!

Like I've said before they were planning on trying for a baby a month after their wedding. And I was genuinely excited and happy for them. Not just an infertile fake "Oh I can't wait" but a real I get to be an aunt again, and I can't wait to help out excitement. Buuuut my brother's job took him 3/4 hours away from me and she is going with him. Now I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do without my best friend. It really makes me sad. I'm going to miss you so much Judes!

I think that's enough for today. I have a lot to say! So with posting more, I should be able to get it all out. So until next time....