NIAW and Random Stuff

Last Saturday kicked off National Infertility Awareness Week (NIAW) and I wanted to acknowledge it on my blog. I was on the Resolve website and found some helpful things, but mostly I liked the Infertility 101. I like that NIAW changed from the fall to right before mothther's day because it brings awareness that we aren't all mothers.

Speaking of not being a mother, this Fem.ara is kicking my butt. Monday, I got in the car turned up the radio and was singing along at the top of my lungs to Taylor Swift (don't judge) and then all the sudden I was crying. And then the crying turned into bawling and then I sat outside my work wondering how I was going to go inside because I could not stop crying. I was crying because of my Grandma passing (her memorial is today), I was crying because my best friend is leaving, and I was crying because I was thinking about the fact that I may never be in a hospital room and have my own baby handed over to me. I want that moment so badly. The moment where you're lying in the bed, you just gave birth, and they give you what you have wanted to see your whole life and you see the perfect little life you and your spouse created. Then a fellow co-worker came and knocked on my window and saved me. I've also had some hot flashes, trouble sleeping, and some moodiness, which I expected. It's about the same as the Clo.mid, but less severe in the whole my life is over, I don't want to live anymore funk it puts you in. Seriously, that's how my body reacted to the Clo.mid.

DH came home last night, finally! And I was so excited to see him, I couldn't stop hugging and kissing him. It was nice just to have someone in the house again. I was going crazy here all by myself. And I especially enjoyed someone next to me while I slept, and tossed and turned from the hot flashes.

I've also been keeping up on the walking. I've been walking every Saturday, Tuesday, and Thursday for the past 2 weeks. I'm pretty proud of myself. And even though I wanted to get out of it one day and use cramps as an excuse, I got my butt up and went out there. I was up 6 lbs, and that really discouraged me, but I think it was bloating and stuff because I am back down. Thank goodness. No progress is one way to get me to quit for sure.

Anyway I better get up and take something for these awful wisdom teeth and go change the fire alarm battery because that chirping is driving me nuts!